I can tell when I’m getting too stressed out because I go days instead of minutes between returning texts, I can’t answer a phone call, I excuse myself from meetings, I blame everyone else for my tension, and I can’t even put on my good mascara because I know I’ll be having a rush of irrational emotions that will leave my face tear stained and splotchy.
My toddler’s emotions are quite similar when she hasn’t had enough rest (actual sleep, or just down time). She doesn’t get it yet, so meltdowns are a regular thing right now.
Thankfully at this stage in the game I am able to catch myself before I hit a breaking point… usually. This absolutely does not mean I am always restful, chipper, and eager for the next thing; but I am getting better at identifying my stress triggers, and aiming to only do what brings me joy or is a clear call from God.
I’m learning to rest, to slow things down. I’m learning that I don’t have to meet up with everyone every single time they call.
Notice I am not an expert, I am merely just learning.
I want to live a joy filled life where I don’t get so stressed that I can’t even put on my shoes. I’m not asking for a cushy easy ride, because I absolutely desire to be used for God’s glory each day, as scary as that may be. I ultimately want to keep my focus far ahead into God’s kingdom and be able to do what He calls me to, not ignore his message for days on end because I’m too booked up being busy.