It started early last week. I told God I felt like I was drowning in my tasks and I couldn’t take anymore. Life wasn’t enjoyable in that moment. My calendar was full and my to-do list was far too long. I told him things needed to slow down. I was in pain, too busy, and needed a break. Then I followed it up with, but please don’t let anyone get sick, I’ve got too much work to do!
The next day… My little girl got a fever! I was furious. I really have no time for this, I told God. It turned into being a bigger illness than I thought and I was forced to slow down.
Through this I felt guilty for not being able to keep up. I was falling behind and missing out on fun from having a sore back (roller skating incident that landed me on my tailbone). now I couldn’t just keep going because my baby needed me.
After a few days the weight was lifted and God opened my eyes to what he wanted me to see.
I’ve put pleasing everyone else first. Everyone except my little family.
This past week I’ve actually had time to enjoy life, even though it first seemed like a curse, and definitely has been tough taking care of a sick kiddo.
I’ve seen more. I’ve taken more in than I usually do. My kids are happier having mommy here to play with them, vs just being here and working on my projects in the background of their playing. My husband feels more validated when I can actually take a few minutes to look at him while we talk, rather than carrying on a conversation from another room while I get things done.
Everything is just better when you are forced to slow down.
It’s my goal to realize sooner when I’m taking on too much. To say no, without guilt {I’ll learn}. Just because I can do something, doesn’t mean I have to {I’ve always felt the opposite, but I’m learning differently}. With too many obligations I can’t do any of them very well & that’s not good for anyone.
Here are some pictures of this last week:
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