I thought about changing churches. I really did. I even had my new church all picked out, but then someone complained about their pastor being “fake”. I knew my pastors were real and I appreciated that. Now granted, this was just an opinion, but it did shift my thinking.
The other problem I had was my husband is active in the church and serves on a couple different boards. You can’t just up and leave when you’re doing that. He was content with the church and I respected that.
I decided running away from my problems weren’t going to fix them. Great thought, right? Yeah, I know, very original. I also decided that my thinking was so misconstrued that I didn’t actually KNOW what my problem really was.
My first step was to pray that God would clearly define for me my problems and make it clear for me to find a way to fix them.
I prayed every door would slam shut and that the only open door would be the one I needed to walk through to fix this. I prayed the light would be shining bright and I would just know it was right.
First I had to identify my problem. One of them was as a mom with a baby in the pew, I had NO IDEA what the sermon was about. I’ll be honest, most weeks I couldn’t even quote one word the pastor said except maybe “welcome”, and that’s just a guess. Even if my baby was sitting perfectly still (hey, it happened once!) I just couldn’t center my heart to be fully there.
not for me. It was a stretch to trust someone else to care for my child without having a clue what was going on. My husband and I also had different opinions on this at different times, but never the same opinion at the same time. You ladies know what I’m talking about, don’t you? By God’s grace we settled with trying it for a few weeks and if it absolutely didn’t work out, we would just reevaluate.
move furniture to accommodate our group. If moving furniture was a love language, it’d be in my top 3.
experienced more years than I, and have been in the church longer was such a blessing. Their wisdom as well as their
frequent requested trips to the church helped me feel welcome. I want to share more of this with you, but that will be another post.