As a very young mom I was asked into a volunteer position. I never accepted it while that person who asked me was still in leadership. I felt like I was too inexperienced. I was immature, and I thought I wasn’t “good enough” for it. I felt guilty for telling this woman who asked me, “No”. I really looked up to her, and this hurt to deny her. I think I probably even made up some excuse as to why I couldn’t accept her offer, and I tricked myself into believing it too. I probably said I was “too busy”, the most overused excuse everrrr. I felt guilty because it actually sounded like a lot of fun, I secretly really wanted to do it, and I felt so honored to be asked! She told me it wasn’t a big deal if I couldn’t take it on, but then she also said something that still echoes in my head today:
think you know how to do it. None of us
really know what we’re doing here.”
Then she said this:
call the equipped, he equips the called”.
knowing I really wasn’t “enough” for it. That was okay. God made me enough for it. Really.
I still don’t know for sure what I’m doing, but God constantly floods my
mind with these ideas, and they seem to work for His glory.